yoooo so sorry for not updating! i never 'cut' from u guys la... haha just tt there's not much abt me to update *_*
was a quite a rush period recently but for now, my work's done so i'm being a lot less productive (and updating journals at work) today haha. however i dont really see any light ahead sigh...
anyways i havent really decided what shd i do for now, to stay? to go? no idea... i love what i do but it pretty much ends there. i dont like what happens to the things i produce... amongst many other things. It's quite heartbreaking. a lot of people advising me to do different things. haha got quite a bit of things to kaobeh but i think i better not type here!
that day when liqin sent out random sms-es her timing couldnt have been better... i was on my way home from the hospital after visiting my mom haha. In the same week did the job problems surface and i got into a fight with a rather close friend and my hard disc crashed with all my portfolio and data inside etc etc. so i'm very very thankful ^^
by now, my mom's back le and plenty of things are more of less settled... and i've got a much clearer mind. So yeah! hahaa somehow things that were lost found their way back into my hands after that. Sadly my hard disk isnt recovering on its own though *look of horror* but nothing urgent bah... shall go for data recovery someday
heh i think i wont be available for much outings anytime soon! so post more info here yea Y u Y
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
It will come. It will come.
Sorry for the lack of updates. I needed to pack my emotions one side and start looking forward. I was lunching with cellmate today and I was very surprised at the words she said. They're very supportive and encouraging to know that I still have some people who are supportive of me despite my downs. Really.
Mistakes are inevitable as we're human. I'm not saying making mistakes are alright but what needs to be said here is that learn from the mistake and move on. No point dwelling and sitting there thinking about it. Of course, there are some people out there ahem ahem who loves their employees to sit and dwell and wallow about their mistakes. It's time to wake up.
If you feel that you're unable to cope, just let the authorities know. They won't mark you down because if you're unable to perform at the end of the day, it comes back to you. Why didn't you voice out your concern? Why did you cleverly take the rap for everything? Now, if something happens, it's going to be YOU again. You should have voiced out your concern earlier. Let the bigger ones up there worry since they take a bigger portion of income home. You're just but a junior in your company.
And to answer your question, no. I haven't gotten anything. Naught. cellmate said it will come to me soon. Her instincts told me that. How sweet to hear that. Really. I trust your instincts, for once. :P I certainly hope so.
I did some stupid things like using office phone to call my handphone to see if it works. It worked! But no phone calls from the person I want to call. When are you going to call me? *Heaves a heavy and loud sigh*
Mistakes are inevitable as we're human. I'm not saying making mistakes are alright but what needs to be said here is that learn from the mistake and move on. No point dwelling and sitting there thinking about it. Of course, there are some people out there ahem ahem who loves their employees to sit and dwell and wallow about their mistakes. It's time to wake up.
If you feel that you're unable to cope, just let the authorities know. They won't mark you down because if you're unable to perform at the end of the day, it comes back to you. Why didn't you voice out your concern? Why did you cleverly take the rap for everything? Now, if something happens, it's going to be YOU again. You should have voiced out your concern earlier. Let the bigger ones up there worry since they take a bigger portion of income home. You're just but a junior in your company.
And to answer your question, no. I haven't gotten anything. Naught. cellmate said it will come to me soon. Her instincts told me that. How sweet to hear that. Really. I trust your instincts, for once. :P I certainly hope so.
I did some stupid things like using office phone to call my handphone to see if it works. It worked! But no phone calls from the person I want to call. When are you going to call me? *Heaves a heavy and loud sigh*
Sunday, September 09, 2007
a tiny step further....
hey cuts....
am feeling quite ecstatic about this :P
he came for cf last thur and i managed to sit beside him!!
made some small talk while eating our lunch...
haha... feeling veri happy... ^_^
to add to that happiness, i saw him again on fri during lunch time!
haha... saw him 2 days in a row....
that's enough to make me happy for the next 2 weeks :P
anyways.... this period of time is really bad for me... been working late for the past month and i'm really feeling very tired and drained by work....
to add to that, 2 months into the job my colleague had decided to leave as she finds it too stressful... so that leaves me to juggle 2 people's job (again) before they get another new staff. AND to add to that, i've got a new superior which heads our unit. i think she needs a secretary but we haven't got one for her yet. so i guess i have to juggle 3 people's job for the time being.... :(
i can't believe it, but i cried in office last week...
was working past 6pm (as usual) and the surroundings were quiet as most people had left for the day. i made some mistakes during the day and was not feeling too good about it. the stress creeps into my heart and i was feeling pretty down. just at that moment my colleague called me.
earlier in the day i was working on some video stuff and had some difficulties which i couldn't solve. i had approached this colleague for help and he actually stayed back on that day to help me find information to solve my problem. i felt so touched and also probably being overwhelmed by work, tears just started to fall uncontrollably...
anyhow, i'm glad that i have colleagues like this whom i feel like we're frens and not just strictly acquaintances at work. felt very much comforted and things also seem brighter :)
i will hang on until the rainbow appears after the rain ^_^
how about the rest? pw and sy found job yet? when is pw flying back for graduation?
i think jess is really 'cut' off from us already... never hear from her for such a long time...
when is our next gathering? oct to celebrate the 3 oct babies' birthdays? :P what say the rest? hear from all of u soon yeah.... ^_^
p/s: amidst all the 'blue-ness' and 'down-ness' and work, seeing him makes me feel really happy! haha... at least for that moment :P hee and i really like the way when he talks to people his attention is just focussed on that person. (u know some people when they talk to you their eyes just float around and are easily distracted by things happening behind u or beside u? :P)
am feeling quite ecstatic about this :P
he came for cf last thur and i managed to sit beside him!!
made some small talk while eating our lunch...
haha... feeling veri happy... ^_^
to add to that happiness, i saw him again on fri during lunch time!
haha... saw him 2 days in a row....
that's enough to make me happy for the next 2 weeks :P
anyways.... this period of time is really bad for me... been working late for the past month and i'm really feeling very tired and drained by work....
to add to that, 2 months into the job my colleague had decided to leave as she finds it too stressful... so that leaves me to juggle 2 people's job (again) before they get another new staff. AND to add to that, i've got a new superior which heads our unit. i think she needs a secretary but we haven't got one for her yet. so i guess i have to juggle 3 people's job for the time being.... :(
i can't believe it, but i cried in office last week...
was working past 6pm (as usual) and the surroundings were quiet as most people had left for the day. i made some mistakes during the day and was not feeling too good about it. the stress creeps into my heart and i was feeling pretty down. just at that moment my colleague called me.
earlier in the day i was working on some video stuff and had some difficulties which i couldn't solve. i had approached this colleague for help and he actually stayed back on that day to help me find information to solve my problem. i felt so touched and also probably being overwhelmed by work, tears just started to fall uncontrollably...
anyhow, i'm glad that i have colleagues like this whom i feel like we're frens and not just strictly acquaintances at work. felt very much comforted and things also seem brighter :)
i will hang on until the rainbow appears after the rain ^_^
how about the rest? pw and sy found job yet? when is pw flying back for graduation?
i think jess is really 'cut' off from us already... never hear from her for such a long time...
when is our next gathering? oct to celebrate the 3 oct babies' birthdays? :P what say the rest? hear from all of u soon yeah.... ^_^
p/s: amidst all the 'blue-ness' and 'down-ness' and work, seeing him makes me feel really happy! haha... at least for that moment :P hee and i really like the way when he talks to people his attention is just focussed on that person. (u know some people when they talk to you their eyes just float around and are easily distracted by things happening behind u or beside u? :P)
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